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[Apr. 17th, 2008|07:45 pm] |
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So i went to van and met this dude. He seemed really nice and i do like him becuase i went recently again to see him and spent the whole day with him. im also convinced he isnt gay and that just because his pictures look really gay and cute dosnt mean he is. And you want the proof eh? well he kissed me.. well i dont know who started it that night but it was good! and quite enjoyable. then the next day he kissed me goodbye in the ferrie terminal in front of people so there is plain proof that he isnt gay because if he was he wouldnt of done that. cuz what gay guy kisses straight girls? no one. but the fact that he lives far away does worrie me. i mean we arent dating but i still really like him. im worried that its not gonna work because of his busy schedual and me not ever havin a day off. and i also have a prob. im impaitent. i like knowing things and not be kept in the dark. i also dont know if im being annoyin and calling too much. meh crushes are confuzzlin. we will see. |
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[Apr. 8th, 2008|11:58 pm] |
so i went to the car show yet again this year! it was fun! i was meeting my friend ryan from van. Ok yes i am a lil bit risky and daft for meeting someone over the internet yet again! but this one ive talked to for at least 6 months and have spoke to over the phone. He seemed really nice and i didnt have anyone else to go to the car show with. Anyways so i went on friday and bought a new outfit cuz for some reason i dont like going to van looking like a bumpkin! so i was looking fine in my outfit! and the first thing he does was give me a great big hug! and it wasnt weird at all. i thought that it would be but meh. Anyways after that we went to Ikea! Dude its Ikea! the best place ever! we went there for breakfast. The breakfast there was a dollar! dude it was a freaking dollar! crazy i know so i had to take a picture of it. Anyways i had so much fun we walked around van because we were waiting for his friends. the car show was good i had fun and got along with his friends too. but anyways i really like him but not like absest over him because i know that i shouldn't keep my hopes up. i tend to set myself up for disappointment and especially this one.
1) he lives in van
2) he works as much as i do
3) he might get transfered to fort w.e in alberta for 2 weeks at a time this summer.
it just seems daft to even start anything.and for some reason i tend to jinx ever finding someone because the moment i start liking him he dosnt like me and he either ignores me or just becomes a jerk! yes im somewhat needy i know that but im just afraid of loosing them. cuz it seems that i cant seem to ever keep them. am i that boring!Yeesh why do i worrie so much . who cares .. its just a big waste of time. |
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[Apr. 4th, 2008|12:04 pm] |
So im excited! im going to my annual car show and it seems every year i bring someone new to it. This year im meeting my friend Ryan there. He lives in van and he is a security guard at the hospital in van. He is a super nice guy and i cant wait! if things go according to plan we are gonna go to the car show then to the aquarium and then meh! i cant wait! i haven't had an actual day off in like almost a month not including the holiday! and today i got the day off as well. Alimdys GOING SHOPPING! Weee i need new clothing! i cant wait!
Oh its lises Birthday next fri and if anyone wants to come celebrate it with us then sweet ill give ya the plans. We might just go out to the foundry on Sunday night and play guitar hero and eat cake or something! |
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[Mar. 31st, 2008|12:26 am] |
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I havent been on here at all. i guess a lot has changed since last!Ive been living on my own for almost a year! its awesome i have a great place and my roommate and i are doing better! Im single as always. i mean i can find them but i cant seem to ever keep them! since my last birthday ive had 6 different dates! first one lived up the road from me. he was nice but he had a smelling prob! i had to frabreeze him every time i saw him and i felt bad but yea. so that didn't work and i feel bad but yea. then there was this awesome guy named duane but he wasnt into the holding hands and pda's and im sorry but i love it. closer to Christmas there was mr big. He was the nicest man ever! he was freakin tall and at first i had a prob with that but yea i don't think it was that that i had to say no to him. I don't know why i let him go and i do regret it sometimes. he was the kind of man that i saw myself introduce to my crazy family and i think thats the part that scared me a lil. i was just startin a new job and yea. well now he as a cool gf and they are happy and im happy that he is happy! damn whats wrong withme! in the past 3 recent months ive gone on a date with 2 other guys named mike! thats 3 in one year! crazy and 2 of them were 6'8 lol i know its freakin tall! anyways i cant seem to keep them! some freak me out, some smell some are really cocky! and the one i liked randomly stopped talkin to me. maybe i just need to let it go. and just live the remainder of my life just me. and if mr right comes along then cool.. but Grr im impaitent! i want someone! i want someone to like me for crazy me! there isnt anything wrong with me! hmm oh well sorry i had to vent! |
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[Jun. 6th, 2007|08:54 am] |
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its finally over between carl and i .. he ended it when i was at work yesterday .. guys sucks! i swear! |
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[Jun. 1st, 2007|08:13 am] |
i always thought that movin oout was supose to be really really cool .. and it is but its also really really scarry! i mean first i was ok with it but lately omg ive been scarred out of my mind! i mean ill be alone! well i have a roommate but that isnt the point .. i was confertable livin with carl and blaine and ryan and i love llivin with them .. it was like one big happy gay fanuly but now i feel as if i am loosin them ! and mr and carl is soo bloody confuzzlin .. i mean omg i care for him alot.. but i have no idea wat he is thinkin .. its drivin me crazi .. it was practically my last night sleepin next to him and he wouldnt snuggle me soo i got angry and i was already upset .. soo i like watched tv for an hr.. at 1 am.. and he acted as if he didnt know wat i was talkin bout.. grr and then yesterday when i tried to talk to him bout where we are going.. he just didnt wannnA talk bout it .. i amm soo confuzzled.. all i want is him and i dont thikn im gonna get that.. man oh man .. being single sucks.. i nean i dread it .. its soo lonley.. well i think soo.. anyways imm off if i dont talk to anyone online its because i moved and i dont have a computer... if you wanna talk to me call me on my cell 667 3462
bywa lin |
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| News Update On mee Alindy!! |
[May. 5th, 2007|12:18 pm] |
Omg everything seems to be fittin together :D:D its awsome
melissa( girl im movin out with ) and i might of found a place and it has a pool !! well its an appartment place with a pool !! how cool is that .. i mean its a 2bd place with heat and hot water included.. and there are laundry places rite on our floor and we are on the top floor !! and its only 750/month how sweet is that .. everywhere else we looked at were like 800/m without anything.. but yea and its not that far away from my moms house on uplands! awsome eh! im soo excited.. and i got my couch from jysk yesterday! its in a big box!! haha we had a mix up there when i first got it.. they gave me the wrong couch.. and so we had to take it back and get a new one.. but they gave me money back for the hassel .. which was awsome! but yea oh i got to see the new spiderman movie.. i saw it openin night.. at 12 man i was soo tired the next day.. umm other then that everything is boring.. but man im soo excited i pray that we get this place cuz it seems sooo perfect for uss!! and when iget it ppls have to come visit and see it !! im excited!
ttyls byessss |
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[Apr. 27th, 2007|10:31 pm] |
Soooo moving out is gonna be awsome once i find a place.. thats is really the only thing that is stoppin me rite now... i mean cuz i have a table... and i just Bought a couch.. which is awsome! mee i bought a couch...haha its awsome its mine all mine.. and its new .. and i dont think anyone has had any sort or sex on it because it comes in a box and its wrapped in plastic.. Mooohaha... i donno ive heard way too many stories of ppls makin babies on them ! ewww yea no thanx .... im not all for the second hand stuff .. but yea .. i am excited .. and nervous that i dont get a place.. andi dontknow bout lots of things that are happenin rite now in my life....how my two jobs ... its ok rite now .. but ive been soo tired lately .. i mean really tired .. and i dout that carl and i are gonna make it any further.. he dosnt love me .. well like me like i do for him .. and i can see it now .. and it hurts cuz i know isound daft but part of me wished he was the one .. cuz i love everything bout himn
but you win some you lose some i guess.. anywys im off...
ill update laters |
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[Apr. 5th, 2007|11:12 am] |
Hello ya'll
Soo i havent writen in this for a long time.. wats new with me.. well last time i wrote in here i was sayin how me and my bf had split like a pea pod! well that part changed.. when i started to try and get over him .. suposeivly i wasnt able to and neither was he.. he said that he still cared for me and that he didnt want to let me go.. .. soo me being daftly in heart with him .. said yes.. and we have been seeing eachother for the past 2 1/2 weeks.. crazi know.. mmm other stuff that has been new .. is that i got a job at starbucks! yes the ultamate job i do say! only prob is that they arnt really givin me any hours and yea its hard to train when i work like one four hour shift in a week .. hmm yea i know .. oh well i hopw that changes.. other then that i am still workin at kernels and i am plannin on movin out by june 1st awsome eh! this girl at work named melissa and i are going to move out ..finally i am freeeeee... ya i cant wait i am soo excited! but anyways ppls will have to come visit mee at my new place.. hopefully it will be closer to something ... anyways thats really bout it with my life.. nothing too exciting .. but yea .. soo i thought that i would update ppls...
ttyls have a good easter!byes |
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[Mar. 16th, 2007|11:40 pm] |
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i really think ive lost my mind.. this week has been hell.. it started last sat where carl ended it with me.. he didnt see us long term.. and truthfully i knew this would happen.. i just didnt want it too.. he was my best friend and i felt so close to him .. and i feel as if i failed.. i was hopin he was the one .. you kow the one you feel at the time you will spend the rest of your life with .. i know im too young for this crap .. but it felt like it .. i really did.. and i thought simon was the only one that meant that way to me .. well carl was more .. and now i feel empty.. i keep picturin other stupid girls on his arm .. or holdin his hand in public.. i know im gonna like run into him one day and see him with her ... he isnt datin but when he does its gonna hit me i know it .. cuz i thought that i might of loved him .. i spent every day with him and never got bord or annoyed .. its really gettin me down lately .. and now im on this health kick .. i wanna get skinny .. i really do .. im sick of being heavey.. oh man i dont know wat to do .. it really hurts .. and im tryin to get rid of the pain but im not doing so well .. |
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[Feb. 19th, 2007|07:54 am] |
well mee being confuzzled behond all all hope ... went to my friend mandas house .. we hanged out there listened to her random neighbouts have sex.. which was so funny cuz i kept singing to make it stop.. but yea and since sundays ryan and carl go to work i decided to be dearing and go dye my hair.. ok i wasnt expecting then hair dressers place at counttry club to have an open spot.. but they did and they dyed my hair black.. do you belive that .. i was thinkin redish brown .. but it turned black.. i domt know if i really like it .. i mean its ok .. anywyas i was soo depressed bout my new hair and wats happenin with carl.. again i wont go off on that .. its too long and hard to deal with .. anyways i walked from country club to the departure bay to ryans house .. which was a far distance .. and when i got back to the house ..i decided to put some of this awful pain on pause .. and drink vodka and juice.. with blaine the other gay guy..mee not drinkin in a long time got drunk pretty quick.. i mean it didnt take long at alll.. i downned a glass and yea anyways .. well weird thing happend carl phoned .. which he never does .. which was weird .. but yea and here i was intoxicated.. i felt odd .. but ohh well i played video games .. ate chinese food and yea .. Oh gawd ryan and i have movie night every sunday and well since carl has been actin weird i didnt thikn he would go near me all night .. soo i hannged out with some of the people and we played video games .. well he was like all over me that night ..it didnt make sense.. gawd he is bloody confuzzling.. one min he dosnt see us long term the other he gets jelious for me talkin to other guys lol its soo fucked up! im serious i thiink im gonna get him a book .. relationships for dummbies.. cuz i dont know if he knows wat he wants .. cuz im soo lost .. i sorta just wanna leave him alone.. and let it bee cuz my heart dosnt know if it can keep takin this whole push pull thing ..
i know im winnin but i cant help it.. one of the loves of my life is fuckin my head up
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[Feb. 18th, 2007|09:02 am] |
im totally confuzzled! i really am... i finally got carl talkin about things like how he feels and such.. and me im all into fighting to make this work.. for some reason i feel that its worth the fight .. but i dont thikn he is feelin the same way. i really dont.. and now i feel selface to keep this going.. well he said that its not that he dosnt like me.. its just he donst see us in the long run. I guess in my heart i wanna see if i can change his mind.. show him that he needs me .. but i dont thikn ill be able to .. gawd it sucks i really like him and i feel as if we are are fine together .. we laugh.. get a long .. grr it dosnt make sense.. he wants to be friends iwth the cuddling and such but ppls domt do that unless we are datin .. id ont know if he just wants to be single again .. or if he just dosnt want to be with me.. geesh im soo soo confuzzled .. then i told him that well im gonna have to take my fish with me .. and he freaked.. he said that if i take my fish then he will prob never see me.. and that when my fish at ryans i would have to come over often and see them .. ISNT THAT CONFUSZZLING .. he dosnt see us in the long run but then he dosnt want to loose me.. gawd! i need some good advice.. all im gettin is "dump him he isnt worth it!" or " you are better then him why waste you time on something that cant make up his mind"
i know they say that you have to let the ones you love or in my case like go but i dont know how.. i really don t.. it feels as if every time i get something good or something awsome happends it gets taken away from me fast! as if i am a disease or something .. maybe its me that dosnt know how to date .. or keep something .. i dont know i just wished that we started to date in the spring and summer .. there was so many places i wanted to show him.. take him .. just enjoy his company.. and i dont thikn my heart can take seeing him with someone else.. at least not for a long time .. i dont know how to let go .. i dont know how to move on .. i mean i know this is sad but i finally found peace with simon . and that was wat 3 yrs ago or more.. man i dotn know wat to do .. i really dont.. and its killin me to thikn that im wastin his time with my .. we can try and see wat happends..
*sigh* please someone shoot mee .. i dont wanna go through with this! it hurts too much .. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2007|08:25 am] |
my weekend was awsome
i went to dinner on friday with lise and we joined spanish.. then i went and saw that movie "epic Movie" which was crap... but before i saw it i missed my buss soo i decided to run to rutherford! man i havent had any exercise in such a long time .. so when i got there i was about to pass out! geesh.. anyways yea the movie sucked! umm then i went to spanish class on sat.. it was cool :D the lady is nice and i won the uno game we played. after spanish carl showed up and took me on a pic nic at qualicome fallss.. omg it soo pretty .. ive never been there before .. and the point that he took me for a pic nic was soo damn cute! hehe .. then that evenin i went to dinner and bowling with my staff and carl .. haha it was fun .. it was glow in the dark bowlin too .. anywyas ill put the rest down later
till then
ta ta for now
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[Jan. 23rd, 2007|10:56 pm] |
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Are you available? Nope :D
What is your age? 20
What annoys you? people steelin popcorn in handfulls!
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Do you live in a big house? yea its nice sized
When is your birthday? Sept 17th
Who brightens your day? Carl + and friends
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What's your favorite candy? stail gummybears
Do you have a crush? YES!
When was the last time you cried? thursday after watching greys anatomy
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Do you daydream? Yes it makes work go by faster
What's your favorite kind of dog? Pomeranians
What day of the week is it? tuesday
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How do you like your eggs? sunny side up
Have you ever been in the emergency room? yes when i found out i was allergic to the cold
What's the easiest thing ever to do? sleep!
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Have you ever flown in a plane? Yes.
Have you ever been to France? Nope
Who is your best friend? i havent seen many of them .. rite now its carl or ryan or lise .. just cuz i see them often
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Do you chew gum? yup
Are your grandparents still alive? i have a grandpa
Do you like gummy candies? Yes they are tastey
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How are you? pretty good
What's your height?5'2 1/2
What color is your hair? right now? brown/black and faded colour
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What's your favorite ice cream? chocolate
Have you ever been ice fishing? nope
Ice Ice Baby? one of thoese songs that never gets old!
Do you play an instrument? yup a clarinet
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What's your favorite jelly bean? the ones that taste like grass
Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke? Joe: did the doctor give you your test results?
Frank:yes it looks like all thoese years of phone sex caught up to me! i have hearing aids now!
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Do you want kids? yes one day!
Where did you have kindergarten? at forest park school
Who would you kill if you could? i dont know if i hate someone that much
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Are you laid back? sure
Do you lie? yea once in a while
DO you like Lemons? yes
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Whats your favorite movie? ................i dont know!
Do you like mangos? donno
What's something you always want more of? Boobs!
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Do you have a nickname? Lin .. well now its ping!
Do you prefer night over day?yes. yes cuz im a geek.. i found out why i cant sleep! i am a geek.. we are not made for sleep .. just all night of gameing..
Are you nice? i would like to think so
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Do You like Ostriches? i dont know there was that one time i was at the zoo in vancouver and one did like a mating dance for my dad.. it was creepy
Are you an onion? yes indeed i have layers
Do you wish this was over? na i miss takin these things
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What are you most paranoid about? waking up while swallowing spiders in my sleep
What are your pet peeves? Other people.
Whats a personality trait you look for in people? a gift for alliteration.. so we are obviously meant for each other. 8-)
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Whats your favorite quote? " the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
Are you quick witted? haha no not at all
Do you like quiet? yes once in a while sometimes it drive mes a crazi
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Do you think you're always right? gosh no
Do you watch reality tv? no
When was the last time you rolled down a hill? highschool sometime
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Do you prefer sun or rain? Sun
Do you like snow? No geesh its cold hell
What's your favorite scent? Vanilla
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What time did you wakeup? 7:30
When was the last time you slept in a tent? end of grade 12
Do you know Tent Trenton? Nein
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Are you wearing underwear? yes
Do you use umbrellas? yes we live in bc why wouldnt i
How many uncles do you have? 5 ones
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Whats the worst veggie? Olives
Where do you want to go on vacation? Scottland!
Do you listen to Vast? dont know them
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What's your worst habit? not being organized
What do you do for work? make popcorn
Way out west? sure
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Have you ever had an x-ray? yep for my finger
Have you seen the x-games? nope
Do you know the origin of the Name Xerox? haha wat
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Do you like the colour yellow? yes its yellow
What year were you born in? 1986
Whats one thing you yearn for? ice cream
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Whats your zodiac sign? virgo
What's your favorite zoo animal? turkey
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[Jan. 21st, 2007|03:27 pm] |
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soo i havent writen for a bit.. really nothing new has happend. ivebeen hangin with carl a lot! well he is wonderful, nice , kind, and he makes me laugh.. soo its all good!
i do want to start takin some random courses.. well classes .. like spanish with lise.. even though it starts next week i think i might do the sat ones with her.. that would be cool. And i think im gonna do tai chi with kisha startin next week. soo ill be doing 2 things! ineed more! ive been going crazi.. ifeel as if i have all this energy and im not doing anything with it at all. its just seems like its going to waste.. soo if anyone wants to like go for a nice walk or whenit gets warmer jaqui would you teach me how to play tennis or something! i want to get active again.. i noticed that when i was buyin jeans the other day i had grown a bit and i dont mean taller! soo i have new goals and such .. if anyone wants to do something active or something cool then give me a call at home.. ill be there.. but anyways is there any hockey still playinor am i crazi.. if so then we should go one friday or something! that would be fun!
ttyls
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[Jan. 4th, 2007|08:59 am] |
Happy new years to all!
hows everyone doing?
Im doing awsome! i have a wonderful bf ( which its our one month today yay) and yea lifes been treatin me well! my new years was ok .. nothing exciting happend there. but Oh well! HmmmNothing else is really really new.
But hey we should have a slumber party at my house sometime .. like get all the girls together or osmething i havent seen anyone in a long time..
get back to me if ya think its cool
ttyls byes |
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[Dec. 24th, 2006|09:23 am] |
hey peeps!
Soo tonights the night .. ooo im actually excited i have some good gifts for my family. and my cuzins from vic are stayin with us for a bit!
anyways have a great christmas
see yas soon byess |
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[Dec. 18th, 2006|08:50 am] |
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ive been havin a problem with my family.. my daft mother wants to kill my happyness.. i dont know if its because she dosnt know how to say i miss you .. or that she really dosnt want to see me grow up.. ive been seein carl for technically a month now and ive seen him like everyday.. its awsome cuz we are soo random that i never get sick of him.. we give eachother our own space but yea its been great.. but i havent been home really at all .. i amit that ive been stayin at his house a lot but we arnt doing anything but sleep.. which is awsome .. cuz im not pressured and its just sleep.. i guess we are movin a lil fast cuz we went bed shoppin yesterday cuz he is movin out of his old place to live with ryan and blaine.. so we were lookin for a bed( which was weird)
but anyways my mom has been freakin out on me lately bout me ditching my family.. i mean when i was at home .. everyone had a life but me.. i would wake up.. work .. come home eat go on the comp and sleep.. woop.. no one ever did anything with me .. and no one ever really cared.. till now ..now that im not at home wallowin in my own pitty that im in this house and not in our condo on the sea wall.. i understand that there is christmas commin up .. and ive been hangin out iwth carl cuz i know i wont see him for a while with family and stuff :S he dosnt cellebrate christmas really:S
but i dont know wat to do .. i mean its just not fair.. i wanna spend every min with carl cuz he is soo awsome but then my family who never has time for me .. gets angry tat im never home.. it just sucks..
anyways im off to work
ill talk to y'all laters
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[Dec. 15th, 2006|09:25 am] |
lifes been great.. work has been boring .. man the mall has been really dead latley! and i havent even finished my chirtmas shoppin :S:S eek i know im behind! OOo but datin carl is like *sigh* i really like him .. i mean its only been a week but geesh he is like the perfect guy! cuz he likes pdas well not the over mackin out ones but the holding hands.. and he is the semi jelious bf type which is soo cute .. well i say taht now but prob later on it will get annoyin :S anyways .. i think guys this one is a keep for a while at least..
watcha all doing for new years? i dont have to work the next day:D yay
anyways im off
i get to meet some of his family morrow lol fun fun :D this weather better get better ... cuz i say so ! |
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